
Right now I am in a season when life feels messy. I often feel like I am barely above water. I am not sinking, but the margins in my life have been shrinking. And when that happens, I want to clean my garage.
I know exactly what I am doing. I am trying to find some place in my life where I can have some control and feel like everything is all in its place.
The thing about life is that it is messy. It is unpredictable. It is always changing. For the past seven years, I have been discovering that I can find serenity in the mess. I don't have to become crazy trying to control it. That just makes me more crazy. I can have a garage that is messy or neat and still be okay inside my own skin.
On this particular day I eventually focused on getting down the Christmas decorations and loading a few boxes for the thrift store. Much more realistic and less exhausting.
And I loved how my daughter couldn't wait to pick up a broom and help us clean the garage in the midst of playing dress up. She had no concept that cleaning is not meant to be fun. She was thrilled to just be with us and share in the activity of the day with her family.
My daughter does not compartmentalize work and play. She hasn't learned to do that. She loves to clean, cook, fold laundry, and unload the dishwasher. All with my help of course. But she loves to do it because we are together. She is not on a time schedule. She is in no rush. Most of the world lives more like she does with a strong sense of community in the midst of every day tasks. I long to live more like that.
My daughter loves to play dress up, not because she is trying to make herself more beautiful to others, but because she loves to dress up. She loves to use her imagination. She loves to be creative. And she loves to invite you into her play times.
Just this evening she came to me and said, "Mommy, I made a manger. Come be in the manger with me."
I said yes.
Her simple invitation helped me to stop and ponder God's invitation to come be with Me in the manger -- the dirty, messy, manger of my every day life. He doesn't ask me to clean it up first. But he's waiting for me to invite him in. He's the only one who can truly clean up the mess anyway. And that's what he longs to do.
Come be in the manger with Me.
ahhh - i relate...
ReplyDeletei always clean the refrigerator when I am feeling out of control :0
really love this post - and the simple truths our kids can give to us when we take the time to listen -
keep writing
xoxo
A perfect Christmas story - in every way. Thank God for that gorgeous girl of your, Kim. And thank God for YOU, sweetheart. Have a lovely Christmas -enjoy each moment as it comes....even the ones you cannot possibly control. :>) Maybe especially those. LOVED this, every bit of it.
ReplyDeleteI love how a her childlikeness caused pause, slow, and mindfulness...simple joys, small wonders. Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteVisiting via Ann's place. Merry Christmas and God Bless.
LOVE.
ReplyDeleteThanks Ladies. And welcome Jeri. Glad you stopped by!
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